Sarah

Resolution

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 01:56:44 GMT

Alright lets try this again, I'm finally going to try and keep up my journal. But as usual I can't keep any promises, seeing as how I have failed in this pointless task numerous times. Well anyways, today marks the first day of the year. Usually I have a few resolutions, but I have yet to think of any. However, I am curious about yours, so let me know, what is YOUR New Year resolution?

Besides being the New Year, tomorrow marks the first day back to school from break. This break was not the best. I spent the majority of it either running or working. And I didn't get to see anyone really. Hopefully after track and after I get into some college, I will have more time. While this wasn't the best break, I made the most of it and managed to have some fun at work, clean my room and bubble bath. I'm not really sure where this entry is going, so maybe I'll write more tomorrow, when I have something exciting to talk about from school.

Pro<Con

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 02:05:12 GMT

Pros: I imported the full Stadium Arcadium album onto my computer. My car has been fixed. I have completed two applications and am in the middle of two. I heard a sweet voice on the phone today. I found nice mechanical pencils. I had dinner at my grandparents. I finished my Huck reading for the night. I have ambitions to go to college far away.

Cons: It's freezing outside. I have the SAT II's next Saturday. I have yet to study for those. I have to write responses for English. I have current events work to do. I am stressed about not getting into college. I am currently doing poorly in math. I think all my classes are progressively getting worse. My computer has no more space. My thumb nail broke.

Sorry for the lack of updates and enthusiasm. I hope I can regain my grades and confidence.

When Do We Run Now?

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 23:10:02 GMT

Again, stressed as usual, and probably will be till about November 4th, AFTER my SAT II's. On the brightside, I have sent in my early decision application to CORNELL UNIVERSITY...I have this really strong feeling of doubt though that I won't get in. But if I don't...so what? Who cares, where ever I go, I will make that my destiny. I think I'm getting fat...I've been eating WAY unhealthy lately and have been too lazy to do much further activity than gym class. YIKES. Also...later this week I have the STAAR program at RPI! This means I will be staying over night there from Thursday to Saturday...advancing in "social, cultural, science, and leadership skills." I really don't know much about it, but maybe it will be fun? AND then...I am leaving Sunday for CORNELL, where I will be spending the night at Kunjal's and touring the Human Ecology school. So yes, at least there is a little gap between my stresses. Until next time, salude (< not sure if that is hello or goodbye)!

My Shadow's Heart Is the only thing thats beating

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 22:13:52 GMT

I have been so stressed out and busy lately. This weekend was very eventful. I won't go into details about my ridiculous Saturday night, but those of you who were there, know what I'm talking about. I finally picked up my senior pictures, they look tacky, but the price was right. And today...I got in my FIRST car accident! I was with Jordan and at a stop light, when a big, toyota truck rear ended me! It was a "hit and run," so I have to stalk down the kids name and get his insurance company name...damages to my car are $1500.00! Yeah...not so hot. Also, this "senior" thing has been so stressful, with all this college crap. I am constantly worrying about if I will get in or not. But I must say, senior year has been the best by far. Ok, this was a short update and pretty incoherent, maybe more later?

RIP sol con

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 02:12:17 GMT

My friend died, not sure what to think.

sophicated mind

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 20:53:31 GMT

clogged with emotion.
grasping to get out.
greed to devotion.
wanting to find out.

paranoid whispers.
various answers.
feelings that make you quiver.
mind dancers.

determination to hit the road.
mathematical mysteries.
aggravation of being cold.
numbers to her are as boring as history.

memories of the past.
excitement for the future.
go by pretty fast.
must wait until she is more mature.

^ Ok, so that was my first ever "freelance" poem. Feed back? Cool.

i love the 80's

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 16:00:50 GMT

^ This video is SO cute and cheesy!

P.S. ^ Thats my future husband.

P.S.S. BIG picture whore post update SOON

Sarah Got Tipsy?

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 03:58:20 GMT

Last night I got TIPSY. So it was my bosses birthday, my half birthday, and the Jewish new year. After work, my co-workers and I all sat down to a HUGE dinner of: lobster, alaskan king crab, shrimp, quail, sushi, fruit, and chocolate cake. I ate SO much! Anyways I ended up drinking a little bit, but definitely not as much as my boss. We played this game where we each went up to my boss, gave him a cheer, and he would down a whole glass of beer, while we would try to compete. He must have drank about six to eight beers alone! Yeah, last night was pretty great, being in a room with eleven other drunk Chinese people, is absolutely hilarious.

After a long night, today was all about boring errands, homework, and a very busy night at work

And tomorrow is a pretty big day. Besides English lessons and homework, Travis and I are going to finally get our senior pictures taken, then frisbee in the park with "that sweet frisbee crowd," THEN possibly cooked food from Travis, depending on the danger of its contents. Well for now I still have loads of homework to finish up and a beauty rest to get for my big debut

WAY RANDOM

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 22:59:15 GMT

Here goes another one of my famous random outbursts or both angst's and happiness. I always say boys are stupid, but I have never actually stopped to think if I was the one being stupid, could you imagine such a ridiculous idea? I conquered my fear of ultimate frisbee and am now a frisbee playing BEAST. I recently accomplished doing 50+ cartwheels and have survived to tell the tale. My physics teacher gave us a surprise test and I achieved a 100! I saw too many people I know at the Cornell meeting. Math is getting better, but I think I did poorly on the first two quizzes. I hate when teachers think they are right, when they are WRONG. I also hate when my mom wants to talk to me, but then ends up bitching at me. I can not wait to get out of this house! RPI sent me a "special" application that will allow me to apply regular decision and find out within 28days of sending my application if I get in or not. Ciao Babina makes me especially happy. The icons on my desktop are currently not clickable, meaning I cannot open up itunes to make myself happier. My room is messy and I think its stressing me out. I have a way long lunch period/study hall tomorrow and I don't even have plans yet. Science club is tomorrow and I'm a dork. I think I should probably stop about now, before I scare off anyone else.

P.S. "Dear Dairy, mood: apathetic" haha!

P.S.S. All these events have happened within the period of one week. Not all in one day!

From Foot Leads the Back One

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 23:32:31 GMT

May I just say I LOVE having SENIOR status. During all lunch periods, I can walk the halls and all I have to tell the annoying hall monitors is "I'm a senior," and they let me by with no trouble. On C-days Rachel and I both have this amazingly long period of free time between 10:51-1:01. So today we obviously left school.

So besides being an awesome senior, school has been pretty decent. In physics we had a buddy quiz and I got matched up with the Brazilian exchange student. Although that defeats the purpose of "buddy," shes pretty nice. I can't imagine how hard it must be for her to understand, she told me she didn't understand the meaning of "degree," and I didn't know how to explain, I just had to show. By saying the buddy system has been defeated I mean that the group basically consisted of me doing all the work and her not understanding, so then copying. Hopefully, I did ok, I would not want her to get a bad grade because of me.

After school, I hung out with Eddie and Zheng from work. They tried WALKING to the bank and by the time they got there, it was closed! So they called me to pick them up. We went to McDonalds, SO classy. And tomorrow I'm stuck bringing Eddie back to the bank after school.

Well I guess that is all for today...lame? Yes, I know.

P.S. Mr. Carli's English class is an insane JOKE.

P.S.S. FIRST math quiz of the year tomorrow! *DIES*

Once In A Life Time

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 02:17:47 GMT

Today I auditioned for the school play. This shalt be interesting.

Orange Juice

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 00:03:40 GMT

Nothing really exciting happened today. Gosh, I'm boring. So here goes one of my famous rants and this time I can't even predict what it is going to be about.

Hmm...what better time than to talk about the importance of orange juice. So basically while the average person sees this as a simple orange drink formed from both concentrate and oranges, I see it as my morning energy. To me orange juice is what coffee is to others. Every morning before leaving the house, I must have approximately eight sips of orange juice. Why eight you may wonder? It's actually a very silly reason. When I was young, I had been fixed on being perfect, which of course included the proper serving size in everything. As you may see, the back of an orange juice carton states that the serving size is eight fluid ounces. Me, being a smart one, never bothered to measure, but assumed that eight fluid ounces must be the same as eight sips. Can you believe my ignorance at age nine? Yeah, well even though that is incorrect, I still continue to take only eight sips, since that seems to be the perfect serving size to me anyways. Back on topic, I drink orange juice for a boost, so I can be awake and energetic as usual in the morning. With out orange juice I am not only thirsty all morning but am a complete grouch, so watch out! Not only do I have to drink orange juice, but it also must not contain pulp, unless it is fresh squeezed of course. Don't ask why, I just don't like the feeling of pulp down my throat. Ok, so now that you know I drink orange juice for breakfast, you should probably tell me a random fact about yourself! Go ahead now, leave a comment. ^_^

P.S. Sarah could you please be any more lame?

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 16:12:21 GMT

Day 2

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 02:23:07 GMT

Ok well since today was a whole set of NEW classes...I get to have a boring entry yet again! Today consisted of: U.S. history, physics, pre-calculus honors, and participation in government (pig) and heres how they went...

U.S. history - It was pretty boring, although not too bad. The only people I know in there are CJ and Nate. All we really did was label maps. And we got an essay assignment about Columbus day :(

Physics - Was DEATH. We had a sub who was pretty chill...but we also got worksheets with no explanation that were due at the end of the block. I can tell this is going to be my hardest class. But I got through it successfully and hopefully did alright.

Pre-Calculus Honors - We took three pages of notes! But it was all pretty understandable...too bad we also got LOADS of homework.

PIG - This is another boring class. All the quizzes and tests are open notes. I have the same teacher in this class as I do first block...so hopefully he will turn out alright.

Ok, that's it for now, my eyes are burning from numbers.

P.S. I'M DRIVING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW AND YOU CAN'T STOP ME!

I have 10:51 - 1:01 free on C days...anyone else have that much free time, that wants to keep me company? Let me know or I'll be forced to go home and nap.

First Day

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 20:42:47 GMT

Well today I started my journey on the most difficult and best school year yet. Being a junior and senior at the same time is pretty awesome. Today I had English 12, physics, p.e., and then English 11. So far I have enjoyed all of my classes. So here's the "low down."

English 12 - Earlier this summer a guy named Pierrick had friended me on another website. I never imagined I would ever actually meet him, but turns out his assigned seat is right next to mine. English basically consisted of introductions and what not.

Physics - Although my teacher is unwelcoming, I think this was probably my favorite class of the day. The teacher kept asking if anyone was ready to drop yet! I hope I will survive. I took a whole page of notes, on the first day!

P.E. - They just took attendance. I know absolutely no one in this class! However, I did sign up to play games and football, oh boy.

English 11 - Again, this was basically all introductions and the last half hour was "chill" time. I miss my old English class from last year, but at least there are some cool people in this one, har har.

That basically sums up my day. Tomorrow is like a whole new day with a full schedule of different classes. So far so good, I hope my other classes will be good as well.

P.S. There are 619 NEW freshmen...AKA 10-year old looking children running around the halls completely lost and cutting you off. ROAR.

Ramble

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 01:40:10 GMT

Although I want to keep this up and running, that certainly does not mean on a daily basis. It'd be nice if I could find the time to update more regularly, but obviously I just can't. Anyways these past few days have been hectic and fun all in one.

Sunday I went to RPI and slept over. Yes, I could type pages on this but I will just share with you that one sentence. Anyone I saw while there, knows how my visit went. Monday was basically recuperating from Sunday night and work. And today was waiting hours in line for a senior lunch pass, supermarket shopping, carting around Jae all day on his errands, and more work.

So to the readers, I'm sure this entry was boring, but I am really just too lazy to explain all my daily little anecdotes that make my life so entertaining.

P.S. School starts tomorrow!

P.S.S. Fudgums = SEX and leave you with that orgasmic feeling ^_<

I'm Back

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 20:35:34 GMT

Sorry for such a prolonged absence. I tend to switch too often between hardcover and LJ. But this time I REALLY want to keep things up and running. Its not that I have been spending more time writing, its more of that I have just been too busy with work. Sadly, the only reason I now have the time to write is because the summer season will soon be coming to a close. In just a few days I will embark on my first day and last year of high school. For the first time in my life I am not sure whether or not I feel excited of scared for school. Usually I am ecstatic about seeing all my old friends, scheduling, and new classes. But for some reason I am more afraid than enthralled. I suppose my BD day scheduling might play a little part in this distress. I can not imagine a day full of history and math. But I know I'll learn to get over that, its something else that’s bothering me. As I begin this journey, I hope to find out and correct. Well I suppose this is a start. Even if this entry is short and not formally paragraphed.

Angst

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 19:19:27 GMT

It's times like this when I feel angst and angry that I choose to write. I don't know why, I always have the sudden urge to write during random influences of anger, but somehow for me writing is like an addictive drug, that I can not help or stop once I begin. Although I have not kept to my promise in updating regularly, I choose now out of all times to write about my life. To those of you who read this, I am sorry if your only interpretation of me is some random, melancholy girl, there really is much more to me than these negative feelings.

Since I don't know of any proper way in describing how I feel currently or what events have led up to this despair, I am just going to go off of random thoughts popping up in my head, so please bare with me and excuse this outrageously long run-on sentence. After working since age fourteen I have recently discovered that mom has gone through all my savings including my Bat’Mitzvah money, not to mention in the past months I have lent her up to $500.00, thus coming out to about $10,000 of my hard earned money! Because of this HUGE loss, I have had to open up a new bank account and start from scratch with only a little over $300.00 to my name currently. To this day that bitch still has the nerve to ask me for money to by her most important need, cigarettes. I no longer care if I am a horrible, disrespectful daughter, she is a stealer, a liar, and does not support me anyways. While some of you readers may think I am horrible for not loving my mother, I refuse to feel guilt, since she has fucked up too many times, living in her unrealistic "dream world."

On to my next topic, are all boys undependable? It seems from experiences with only in the past few weeks, boys seem to always break their promises. So far I have encountered liars, cheaters, immaturity, and in a class of its own jerks. By cheaters, I do not mean on my own behalf, but in the place of their own significant other. So, should it be my fault that I helped in the cheating act? Should I forget the incident? While for the most part I have let go, I can't help to wonder what they think about this situation and how strong is their relationship with their "other?" Is this what jealously is? Maybe, but since never experiencing it I would not know, nor do I see a reason to be jealous, why should I care so much? Not to mention I have found that other guys are undependable, they make plans to meet you weeks in advanced and at the last minute just blow you off without even a phone call of apology or explanation. Perhaps I am too demanding, but is a call really too much to ask for? Maybe it is because I am too "intimidating" as most say, but really a phone call should not be all that scary. And finally the everlasting cause for immaturity. Why are guys so immature anyways? Is it them trying to impress girls? Do they think they are actually being funny? I believe it is ok every once in a while, but too much just gets mad lame. Obviously I do not have such luck with the opposite sex as others may think.

Enough of my angst, I have applied for a position at Price Chopper as cashier. I am hopefully awaiting a second call back, to confirm, it seems as if I am the only one in my family who actually works! Also I have finally finished "The People's Republic of Desire" by Annie Wang, great book, that makes me think, what could MY own story be? I suppose I will be like the character, and continue to search for what I really strive for. For instance I can not leave this battle in defeat.

Yes The ACT Is Finally Over

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 20:08:06 GMT

Wow, so lately I have been incredibly busy. Thursday (my death day), I finished all three finals and then went to Gabi's birthday party. The party was pretty fun however, I didn't get back home until 1:00am on a school night, so naturally I was mad tired on Friday.

Friday was a pretty decent day. In global were finishing up Hotel Rwanda (really good movie). And in relationships I watched a video on all the different methods of contraception, just what I needed to see. Then later was work.

And so this catches up my update to today. This morning I took the ACT with writing. It was alright and hopefully I did decently. After hours of pointless testing, Rachel, Davey, and I went downtown to eat and watch the parade. There were so many high school bands, but obviously none from our own high school. Well I guess that is all for now. I am in dire need of a picture update and I do have pictures, only they're on my phone and I don't have the time to upload them yet. But there are a lot from both lunchtime and Gabi's party.

Yikes

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 20:27:00 GMT

Half of math and English finished and done with relationships. This means just the rest of the math and English finals, plus the art final. YES, it's almost over, unfortunately all three of those tests are tomorrow. I hope I can survive under all the pressure of doing well! Now to look forward to my Saturday ACT, Monday five-hour, and five state regents. Oh boy. I really cannot wait for all this ridiculous testing to be over.

On a happier note, I met with Ms. Blankenship the other day. She was very supportive of my want to graduate early and recommended some very difficult institutes. While most people would be proud to be complimented with such recommendations, it only made me more nervous! While she believes in me, I do not believe I could get into such high class schools. Luckily, I have her to help me out with my college choices.

However, one problem I cannot seem to decide is whether I want to study biochemistry or clinical psychology in college. While I have always been interested in psychology, biochemistry is growing and will enable me to succeed in the future. Who knows what I will end up deciding and who knows where I will attend. I wish I knew.

Call Me

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 22:28:16 GMT

After two years of a crap phone, I finally got a NEW one, for FREE! It's the latest one on the market from verizon and is VERY fancy. I can now take pictures and record videos, not to mention listen to music, watch videos, and go online. So yeah, my new phone is pretty much awesome and you should be jealous. :p Sorry that rant sounded a little bratty, I'm just so excited about it.

Where'd You Go? I Loved You So

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 03:13:29 GMT

I miss the old days. Not too old. Just eighth grade, I think. Ok, well that was random. Anyways, I didn't do much today besides DORK OUT. By this I mean I went to the library and studied my butt off for exams and the ACT. After that was work. Well I guess that was all, how boring.

Xing Qing (Starry Mood)

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 23:35:46 GMT

Wow. Today was quite the hectic day. First off was a biology quiz, followed by a Spanish quiz, then a global regent practice. I can't wait until all this review and studying is over. I hate it all!

On a brighter note, I talked with Ms. Blankenship (my old chemistry teacher) today. I called her up to ask about a recommendation and she was excited to hear that I had been planning to graduate early and study something in the field of biochemistry. She also informed me that she has "connections" to various colleges and ensured me I'd be able to get into one. Although applying to college will be exciting, it is also very nerve-wrecking and stressful, not to mention HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU DECIDE WHERE TO GO? Oh well, right now I have to concentrate on passing math and the rest of my finals, regents, and most importantly ACT.

cute as a button

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 02:43:39 GMT

Well I suppose all in all today was an alright day, but today was also the day I realized the horrors of all the stress that is about to come. Although I am truly excited about the school year ending, the end of the year also equals several finals and regents exams. It never occurred to me that everything would happen so soon! For example I have three finals back-to-back next Thursday, in just a week! Not to mention I have yet to prepare myself for anything thus far. I guess an important lesson learned here is to live each day by the day, but remember not to forget about what is ahead and the future of what is to come. Well those are my words of wisdom for today. And so I leave you with my lovely coordinated outfit for the day.

Cloudy

Wed, 31 May 2006 01:59:55 GMT

I guess this will have to be a boring entry, considering I do not have any photographs to share or much time to say anything the least bit interesting. However, MARK my words: "boys are ridiculous."